{"id":12715,"date":"2022-11-21T18:55:01","date_gmt":"2022-11-21T18:55:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/maryamverse.com\/?p=12715"},"modified":"2023-04-22T23:51:38","modified_gmt":"2023-04-22T23:51:38","slug":"messy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/srcdemolink.site\/marry_bck\/messy\/","title":{"rendered":"Messy"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-vivid-cyan-blue-color has-text-color wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-size:clamp(14px, 0.875rem + ((1vw - 3.2px) * 0.392), 18px);\"><strong>People don&#8217;t like Messy&#8230;&#8230; Right ???<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image aligncenter size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/maryamverse.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/XXXx-512x512.webp\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-12735\" width=\"231\" height=\"231\" srcset=\"https:\/\/srcdemolink.site\/marry_bck\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/XXXx.webp 512w, https:\/\/srcdemolink.site\/marry_bck\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/XXXx-300x300.webp 300w, https:\/\/srcdemolink.site\/marry_bck\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/XXXx-150x150.webp 150w, https:\/\/srcdemolink.site\/marry_bck\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/XXXx-100x100.webp 100w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 231px) 100vw, 231px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-size:clamp(14px, 0.875rem + ((1vw - 3.2px) * 0.098), 15px);\">The burden of being you, almost carrying your survival story to yourself, feels heavy, empty, and surrounded by nothingness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-size:clamp(14px, 0.875rem + ((1vw - 3.2px) * 0.098), 15px);\">It&#8217;s hard for us to accept that we are messed up, you never had the nerve to let someone see what they did to you, how they made you fee<strong>l helpless and scared like a child<\/strong>, it goes beyond our control to let them see how vulnerable we are in our shells, because the idea of the strength that we know is harsh, it&#8217;s cruel and evil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-size:clamp(14px, 0.875rem + ((1vw - 3.2px) * 0.098), 15px);\">We as human beings are designed to protect each other&#8217;s pride, whenever you have a chance to save someone&#8217;s face, do it with all your power, but listen to me this one time<strong><em>, do not scare people off by faking the power you don&#8217;t actually hold<\/em><\/strong>, know when to ask for help, protect your peace from your own negative thoughts, stop running away, let the hell rain on you, break into a million pieces, embrace it, then one day, get up in the afternoon, when you are just finished listening to a song, you realize you have moved past it &#8211; the horrible phase of nothingness had a silver lining after all. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-size:clamp(14px, 0.875rem + ((1vw - 3.2px) * 0.098), 15px);\">Be messy, and emotionally challenge your mates; if they are not ready to guard you in your chaos, you do not belong to them!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-size:clamp(14px, 0.875rem + ((1vw - 3.2px) * 0.098), 15px);\">And I wish I could tell you it gets easier, but I can\u2019t lie ~<br><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>People don&#8217;t like Messy&#8230;&#8230; Right ??? 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